Take it all Away

I am not a sane person.

I'm not.

Whether it be because of my parents, my family or circumstance alone, I've developed several personality traits that are unique, mildly disturbing and just very problematic.

People don't see this most of the time, because I usually won't give people THAT much time to get to know me to reach the point where they notice these particular faults. A while ago, I just smiled and cut them short. It was good because people always thought I was a great person, but it was bad because I didn't really give people the chance to reject me when they found out how totally nuts I was. It's HILARIOUS.

Those who have continued being my friends through thick and thin, sometimes deal with huge mood swings, split personalities, and an unhealthy amount of drama which, let's face it, would scare the T-Rex from Jurassic Park back into the cretaceous period.

Just to be clear. I'm not bipolar. I just happen to like two very different things, which at a certain point one calls for the other. I love modelling, designing, and decorating. That's the artist part of me.

I also happen to love computers and technically... I'm a geek in the body of a hot model. That's what it basically amounts to.

Just in case though... I took the personality quiz.

It turns out I'm a ENFJ!! I am "THE GIVER".

:O Whao. This test is pretty accurate. I'm reading it and it turns out I'm not the only weirdo like me out there. That makes me feel MUCH better.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

That is SO TRUE! OMG.

Scary.

Anyways. My original point in WRITING this post was simply to thank the people who Do deal with me in a daily basis. If it weren't for you people I'd be totally crazy (and not just HALF crazy like I'm now). so thanks! :)

Ethan, love you baby! <3