The Calculator

Yes, well, after a breakdown [again...] I decided I'm still going to move forward and still give it my best, and still advance as much as I can, and still be someone, someone I want to be.

Nathaniel moved in with me yesterday, and yes, bloody Nathaniel, I'm a spoiled princess, boo hoo, don't you see my crown? I wear it every night to sleep! If I want to complain and mope, let me do so, it's not like you're GOD. Besides, I've never disappeared to Tibet until I settled my inner emotions [and let's hope I don't get to that].

Ok, I'm trying. You don't get that, do you? It's not easy because I don't know what I want or who I can even be anymore. And this is my BLOG, I get to post all my feelings, if you have a problem don't read it! [though thanks to those who do put up with it].

So this is my moment to find what I want. I'm a bit lost, but I can work it through. If I was able to beat Nathaniel and Christian and Dominoes, I might as well figure this out. I mean, there's no rule for life, but there's gotta be a way. This is like a small cocktail of tastes, and I'm just going to see which one I like the most. Now, let's see. Ahem. Things I like:

1. Archery/Tai Chi/ Exercise/ Love working my Body (maybe I should be a personal trainer? hehe! That would be fun, not to mention I'd get to wear those awesome tights that show off my body)

2. Cooking! [I like cooking, but I like cooking for people. See, Vincenzo I love cooking for because he appreciates good food. :) I do hope Nathan is right and he drops by. He knows how to treat a woman)

3. Computers/Softwares [I've already worked for the government in this aspect, but I still appreciate technology quite a lot, but not really something I want to do my job in, plus I already have a Ph.D in engineering and such :P haha! What a waste! Though sounds cool!]

4. Decorating [I decorated a wedding once, and it turned out beautifully, AND I designed a wedding dress. Okay. Wedding Planner? Wouldn't that be ironic! Though I have to admit, it is rather funny! hehe]

5. Painting [an artist? Hmm... I do like painting a lot... that comes with loving to design?]

6. Travelling! [I love getting to see new places]

Hmm... maybe I should become some sort of writer. I could travel, illustrate and right... in my computer! X) Okay, sorry that was funny for a second. But hmm... I never really did consider writing and I happen to like it quite a bit, whether it be gossip, or biographies, or any of that stuff, I really like writing... imagining adventures, imagining other worlds, new characters. OMFG. I think I know what I'm going to try out next. And since I can always steal the money from the Delton accounts... I could have the exact type of life I wanted. And if I do something naughty? I was investigatiiiiing.

A writer.

Hmm. I like how that sounds.

A lot.

Sounds kinda sexy too, dirrrty.

By the way. I'm just trying new things out. Might as well, huh! But I like that.... I really really like that. Omg. Why had I not thought about it before?

I can cook, I can travel, I can exercise, I can WRITE! And something to eternally entertain myself with, and so many characters that just POUR out my mind! >)

Okay. I can do this. I think we have a winner!